I understand variance and all, and understand how things will even out (as they say). But this has been going on for the past 3-4 months without any let up. Yes, I do have a few suck outs here and there, but they are no where near as much as I am getting sucked out on. It seems that I am only getting lucky early in the tourney and when it really matters is when I am getting crippled of knocked out, especially on the bubble or late in the tourney.
This happens to me tonight, just in the money of a $2.25 tourney, I am in the BB with AK with a little over 10BBs. A few limpers before me, and I shove in my stack with all intentions of just taking the limpers out of the pot, but the button limper calls with 89s, for his entire stack. Of course he rivers the flush to all but cripple me:
Full Tilt Poker Game #8216188486: $2 + $0.25 Tournament (62386907), Table 1 - 400/800 Ante 100 - No Limit Hold'em - 1:50:17 ET - 2008/09/25
Seat 1: pimppokerstatus (9,188)
Seat 2: proptaxman (11,635)
Seat 3: indyontop (5,186)
Seat 4: DUKENDABEARS (3,236)
Seat 5: BPC487 (17,892)
Seat 6: dirkinseattle (16,914)
Seat 7: FreeToes (7,013)
Seat 8: UKman1 (21,115)
Seat 9: merchdawg (9,515)
pimppokerstatus antes 100
proptaxman antes 100
indyontop antes 100
DUKENDABEARS antes 100
BPC487 antes 100
dirkinseattle antes 100
FreeToes antes 100
UKman1 antes 100
merchdawg antes 100
UKman1 posts the small blind of 400
merchdawg posts the big blind of 800
The button is in seat #7
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to merchdawg [Kc Ac]
pimppokerstatus folds
proptaxman folds
indyontop folds
DUKENDABEARS has 15 seconds left to act
DUKENDABEARS folds
BPC487 calls 800
dirkinseattle folds
FreeToes calls 800
UKman1 calls 400
merchdawg raises to 9,415, and is all in
BPC487 has 15 seconds left to act
BPC487 folds
FreeToes calls 6,113, and is all in
UKman1 folds
merchdawg shows [Kc Ac]
FreeToes shows [8h 9h]
Uncalled bet of 2,502 returned to merchdawg
*** FLOP *** [Jh 9d Kh]
*** TURN *** [Jh 9d Kh] [7d]
*** RIVER *** [Jh 9d Kh 7d] [3h]
merchdawg shows a pair of Kings
FreeToes shows a flush, King high
FreeToes wins the pot (16,326) with a flush, King high
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 16,326 | Rake 0
Board: [Jh 9d Kh 7d 3h]
Seat 1: pimppokerstatus folded before the Flop
Seat 2: proptaxman folded before the Flop
Seat 3: indyontop folded before the Flop
Seat 4: DUKENDABEARS folded before the Flop
Seat 5: BPC487 folded before the Flop
Seat 6: dirkinseattle folded before the Flop
Seat 7: FreeToes (button) showed [8h 9h] and won (16,326) with a flush, King high
Seat 8: UKman1 (small blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 9: merchdawg (big blind) showed [Kc Ac] and lost with a pair of Kings
And then a few hands later I get it in again with AK and get called by QT, for over 1/2 his stack and he of course catches up on the river for a King high straight.
Full Tilt Poker Game #8216231528: $2 + $0.25 Tournament (62386907), Table 1 - 400/800 Ante 100 - No Limit Hold'em - 1:55:12 ET - 2008/09/25
Seat 1: pimppokerstatus (2,702)
Seat 2: proptaxman (10,335)
Seat 3: indyontop (13,872)
Seat 4: kendah (10,392)
Seat 5: BPC487 (15,792)
Seat 6: dirkinseattle (38,576)
Seat 8: UKman1 (19,815)
Seat 9: merchdawg (1,702)
pimppokerstatus antes 100
proptaxman antes 100
indyontop antes 100
kendah antes 100
BPC487 antes 100
dirkinseattle antes 100
UKman1 antes 100
merchdawg antes 100
kendah posts the small blind of 400
BPC487 posts the big blind of 800
The button is in seat #3
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to merchdawg [Ks Ah]
dirkinseattle folds
UKman1 folds
merchdawg raises to 1,602, and is all in
pimppokerstatus has 15 seconds left to act
pimppokerstatus raises to 2,404
proptaxman folds
indyontop folds
kendah folds
BPC487 folds
pimppokerstatus shows [Qh Th]
proptaxman: So, if I reraise you wouldn't fold?
merchdawg shows [Ks Ah]
Uncalled bet of 802 returned to pimppokerstatus
*** FLOP *** [5s Jh 4c]
*** TURN *** [5s Jh 4c] [9c]
*** RIVER *** [5s Jh 4c 9c] [Kc]
pimppokerstatus shows a straight, King high
merchdawg shows a pair of Kings
pimppokerstatus wins the pot (5,204) with a straight, King high
merchdawg stands up
pimppokerstatus stands up
proptaxman stands up
indyontop stands up
kendah stands up
BPC487 stands up
dirkinseattle stands up
UKman1 stands up
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 5,204 | Rake 0
Board: [5s Jh 4c 9c Kc]
Seat 1: pimppokerstatus showed [Qh Th] and won (5,204) with a straight, King high
Seat 2: proptaxman folded before the Flop
Seat 3: indyontop (button) folded before the Flop
Seat 4: kendah (small blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 5: BPC487 (big blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 6: dirkinseattle folded before the Flop
Seat 8: UKman1 folded before the Flop
Seat 9: merchdawg showed [Ks Ah] and lost with a pair of Kings
It is really hard to stay positive when these beats keep happening over and over again. I know I am supposed to focus on wether I played the hand correctly, but when you play the hand correctly so many times and end up getting beat every time.
Alot of people have told me I need to take a break, but I just got off a break. I was pretty much on a break the entire month of August, and I come back to running just the same way. It is really hard for me to take a full break away from it all since I don't have much anything else to do around here. I have already planned a trip in October to go visit my brother and his family. I think this will be a good time to just leave everything back at home (laptop, books, magazines, anything poker related) and just relax and not worry about anything poker related for a few days. Maybe that will help and clear my head.
I really don't know what else there is that I can do, making any drastic changes to my game is at this point doesn't seem like the right thing to do, because it will just cause me to press with a new style/system and make mistakes that will just compound these beats that I am taking.
All I really know is that if things don't start turning the other way anytime soon, then I will just go completely insane.
Heres to things changing for the good soon, until next time,
Merch
